Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought, “Why do I have to look this way?”…”I need to lose weight, I want to be skinnier, I wish I could be better at playing sports, I wanted to be thinner, have prettier hair, perfect teeth, flawless skin… I didn’t want to look like me. I had standards in my mind of what I thought was pretty at the time, because that’s what the world accepted. God used a huge trial in my life to show me just how beautiful I really am to Him. God looks at the heart and soul, not the condition of my face.
I always thought that I had to try “look perfect” because I sing and meet new people. All that changed within 2 weeks of being home from my time on the X-Factor, I broke out with terrible acne. It wasn’t just a normal pimple…I had a rash of pimples. Sore, itchy and confidence crushing. I felt so ugly!
I looked in the mirror and cried many times, questioning why God would allow this to happen. I can’t leave the house with these pimples on my face!” If you have thought anything like that…you are not alone. I used to look in the mirror and questioned the way that God created me.
I really tried to keep my faith strong but, It was so hard to find the good in the trial during that time. It was so hard to talk to people because their eyes would wander around my face, and I knew exactly where they were starring. I wanted to quit my part-time Christmas job to hide and stay in my room forever.
Luckily, God didn’t allow that to happen. I didn’t hide. I continued working at my part-time job as sales associate, at a local retail store. I also continued to lead worship on Friday nights for the Youth Church. People , random stranger, used to walk up to me and say, “ I have a really good dermatologist if you would like the number?” I knew their heart was in the right place but I felt so awkward.
In the midst of the worst of the breakout, I was called and asked to sing The National Anthem for a very large college basketball play-off game. I always had a motto, “If the phone rings, sing.” I was reluctant because I know I would be shown on the large stadium screen. I swallowed my fears, stuck to my motto and said yes.
My mom and I were driving to PA for the game 6 hours away. we left early that morning to get there for an early pre-game sound check. I remember the sun was rising and the view was gorgeous. Different colors rose into the sky, and the mountains were breathtaking. I was amazed by the beauty of it all, the sky, the grass, the view.
In that moment, I heard God tell me, “Chelsea,You think that’s beautiful? I think you are even more beautiful.” When God wants to tell you something,His words break through everything.
Just like that, I could feel a weight lifted off of me of wanting to look perfect. When I realized that HE thinks I’m beautiful, acne, scars, flaws and all…it was life changing. That night, while singing the National Anthem. I stood tall and didn’t fear what others were going to see. God was by my side every minute. He was with me the whole time. From the first pimple, to now. He has truly held my hand through it all, every step of the way. If it wasn’t for His love and strength, I can honestly say I would have been an emotional wreck. I made it through and came out a stronger person.
This world “standards” has such a misconception of the definition of beauty. It’s not what we see on TV, magazine covers & billboards,they all have flaws too. God has created you exactly the way that HE wants you, not the world. HE thinks you are beautiful and His MASTERPIECE. You are not perfect, only God is Perfect. Don’t fall into the lies that this world says about you. You were made for such an amazing, wonderful purpose. You are truly a masterpiece, designed by our Perfect Creator.
Ephesians 2:10 (NLT) – “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
1 Samuel 16:7 says, “But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”